A Poem Rumi Forgot to Complete

  So it's 31st December and a wrap then. I'm glad that I didn't kill myself this year.  There were moments when I wanted to scream, I wanted to shout, I wanted everything to end. And no, it was not because of love. Faiz once said "Zamany main or bhi gham hain Mohabbat ke siva" ( There are other sufferings too in this world besides the agony of love) . In my story, this agony is sadness which I got in heretiance. It is my mind and the voices- the voices that will never let me sleep peacefully. The voices that urge me to leave everything behind. The voices that tell me that I belong to nowhere, nobody. The voices that tell me I don't matter. And sometimes, these voices speak the truth, that we all deny deliberately. Some very dear people went against my wishes this year, didn't meet to my expectations and when I confronted them, they blamed me for overreacting, for not taking things lightly. Yes, I'm a narcissist, if I don't control you, I don't...

I was tired. I was tired of everything. I was tired of telling them how to treat me. I was tired of begging for love. I was tired but no one could see. No one could understand. None could make me happy. I was destroying myself. I no longer wanted to remain in love, or this world or even in my home. I had lost it all but still, I kept on going, hoping that one day, it would be better. One day someone would walk into my life, hold my hands and understand me.... I hoped... But hope is a dangerous thing, it can completely ruin us. Hope is a slow poison and I was no longer interested in poisoning my mind and heart. So I left it behind. After losing it, suddenly all I had was darkness. The world seemed a distant place - a place where I could never be happy. A strange place where I could die in peace but I couldn't live... There was no point in living - with everything happening around the world, my mind was more messy. I could finally understand how the famous artists lose themselves wit...

  We all have a dark side.  Whether we acknowledge it or not, doesn't matter. Since the creation of this world, two forces have dominated the world — the good and the bad. From animals to humans, each one of us has some bad and good qualities. In the end, the dominant side wins. But it's not true.  We are continuously entangled in this war of right and wrong. We take one decision that is against something. No matter if it is a bad or good one. We have this story of Abel and Cain . Then we have this saying of " All is fair in love and war ". So, how does it make Cain a bad person? I leave this question to you.  Life as we know it is not simple. It's not complex either. We make it complicated.  Our brain works in such a way that weighs all the pros and cons of a decision. Every decision is a decision against something, as they say in the German series - Dark, we just go with a lesser wrong decision or at least we pretend that we made a good choice.  The...