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The Dark Unknown Side

 




We all have a dark side. Whether we acknowledge it or not, doesn't matter. Since the creation of this world, two forces have dominated the world — the good and the bad. From animals to humans, each one of us has some bad and good qualities. In the end, the dominant side wins. But it's not true. 


We are continuously entangled in this war of right and wrong. We take one decision that is against something. No matter if it is a bad or good one. We have this story of Abel and Cain. Then we have this saying of "All is fair in love and war". So, how does it make Cain a bad person? I leave this question to you. 


Life as we know it is not simple. It's not complex either. We make it complicated. 


Our brain works in such a way that weighs all the pros and cons of a decision. Every decision is a decision against something, as they say in the German series - Dark, we just go with a lesser wrong decision or at least we pretend that we made a good choice. 


The title seems a little too bold, doesn't it? By dark side, I mean we all have some kind of secrets, desires, and motivations that we cannot share with anyone. Even with not the close people. This side can be too dark to share it with anyone else. Sometimes, the thoughts are not even too dark but still the fear of being judged stop us to share them with the closest people. Sometimes, this side is neither dark nor evil. And right now, I am at loss of word to properly label this side of human beings. 


Let me explain it a little bit. We are not even honest with ourselves. If we don't like someone, we don't directly tell them. We just hope that they might get the idea. When we are angry with our favourite person, we behave oddly so that they can sense the tension. Many will call it a communication gap. I label it as dishonesty. 


But again, if I were brutally honest for five minutes, I would lose all my relations. No one wants to hear the truth. So what truth, I am implying here? It's the same truth of the side that is unknown to many of us. 


When I come in contact with someone’s negative energy, I will immediately recognise it. So should I tell him/her? No, I cannot and I won't. Does this make me a bad person? Morally yes, because I am hiding the truth. But what if they feel the same and tell me the truth on the spot? Does this make them a bad person? Or I would think that they had a bad side and that they just told me the truth without any hesitancy? I don't want to answer this. You have to ask this from yourself. Are we the honest people or not?


By this blog, I don't want you to be negative but yes self-awareness is a must. Most of us are not even true to ourselves, let alone others. 


Self-actualization is the first step towards being a good, empathetic person. The world is already losing it. It's our duty to realize our purpose in this world and be a ray of hope for everyone else. 


In my Instagram bio, I use this word - Nihilistic - for myself. In this very blog, I want to say that the word is only applicable to my mind and my thoughts, it is the war of my mind and soul. It does not mean that I'm a nihilist for everyone else out there. 


In short, let us be aware of our evil and dark side and be confident enough to make sure that we are going to change it with the hope of making this chaotic world a more peaceful place. 



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I KNOW MY WRITINGS DO NOT MAKE ANY SENSE BUT BEAR WITH ME :). 

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  1. L7November 17, 2023 at 9:50 PM

    I see what your saying here. Don't you think Islam answers all? In terms of being nihilistic; even if its to the extent of your internal battles, in my opinion, islam is the answer. True, dark sides do exist and we do owe to ourselves in finding ourselves. Can't be of any good to anyone if your still an unresolved rubik's cube

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    1. nihilism-thoughtsNovember 17, 2023 at 10:11 PM

      This would take us to another debate.

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    2. L7November 17, 2023 at 10:24 PM

      Would love nothing more

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    3. AnonymousJanuary 10, 2024 at 7:01 AM

      I am type of a person ,who blatantly tells someone close, that I feel this about you,like you have this bad habbit or this awkward trade but still I tell them in private and face to face.
      And when it cones the good side of my aquaintance, I do talk about them but not infront of them behind there back.

      And when it comes to good and bad side I am only bad for myself morally I cant benifit myself by others loss.


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    4. nihilism-thoughtsJanuary 10, 2024 at 7:40 AM

      Does it benefit you? I mean the people get your point or don't? Do they regard you for this or stop talking to you?

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  2. AnonymousJanuary 10, 2024 at 12:04 PM

    As I said 'I am only bad for myself" most of the time , so I consider any benefit or tap on the shoulder for it.Also , I dont sugar coat my words maybe the way I talk doesnt infuriate them.
    Non of my friends is immature they have certain cons still I consider them mature.
    Only when I have to advise my students I reherse it on my mind , because I dont want to influence there personal growth.

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    1. nihilism-thoughtsJanuary 10, 2024 at 12:13 PM

      Well thats great. Good to know that people like you and your friends exist in this world :)

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