Absurdism vs Nihilism: Losing Both Battles

Absurdism vs Nihilism 

I can no longer use nihilism because nihilism is the last stage of pessimism. So I found a relatively less controversial label - absurdism. Why would I pay attention to this? The logic is simple, my readers were not happy with me being a nihilist. 

To some extent, if both are studied logically, convey the same meaning. However, they told me to relinquish nihilism. You see, the world, won't let you freely label yourself. Nihilism was something more depressive, then what is absurdism. Google says it is philosophy that believes the universe is meaningless. In the first place, I had no problem with the universe. I don't care whether the universe should be more meaningful. I had raised questions only about the creation of Adam and myself.  What I think is that my life is meaningless. By embracing absurdism, I would be a nihilist for everything. But it does not matter.

Embracing absurdism

I don't mind a galaxy moving away or moving towards one another. I don't mind the path travelled by stars, planets and so on. They are not me. I have not experienced their lives. I don't know how their mind works. I am clueless whether they have a mind or not. I don't know whether there is any meaning attached to them or not. I don't know whether they think about the mystery behind their creation or just obey the order. But, now I have to believe that their creation is also purposeless. 

To me, my life is meaningless. I don't mind if Jupiter clears its orbit of asteroids. But, I mind an asteroid hitting my mind with thoughts that are forbidden. Words that we don't say out loud. The knowledge that creates contradictions. Also, I mind a planet hitting my Kundli (birth-chart) and creating chaos - I have no idea how it works but it is the knowledge that compels me to think. The thoughts catch my attention and I ponder over things. People even mind me when I say that ignorance is bliss. You have no idea how various thought interwinds with one another and create never-ending chaos in people's hearts and minds. We think we know but we do not know. And with each new information, there is something more conflicting, more revolutionary and more chaotic. 

Spiritualism makes people better

Instead of absurdism and nihilism, they advised me to go for spiritualism. To me spiritualism is another journey towards a mystical creature, a Superman, I hate this term, I don't want that higher being to be a human. Back to the topic, they think by embracing spiritualism, I would find meaning in life. Absurdism, Nihilism and all the "ism" are philosophies with contradictions. I agree but then what about the "ism" in spiritual? It is also full of conflict. The Sufis forget about this world and unite with that entity leaving everything behind when the spiritualism also advocates for a balanced life. 

I do not understand, why the only purpose of our lives is worshipping God. What about all the good and evil things? I kill a man and worship God, is that morally correct? Would God forgive me? Or the people who say and do bad and repent on the deathbed, is it correct? 

The other day, I was on a philosophical platform and found God is beyond explanation of logic and reason. Only guesses. The guesses that could lead man to disbelief. Absurdism believes that trying to find meaning would lead to conflict so I guess I could have been an absurdist first and a nihilist then. But then again, I am a selective nihilist. A nihilist who would believe in everything and simultaneously in nothing. That's why most of the thinkers live a deeply depressive life. 

Another thing that gets on my nerves is the people who do not want to understand. For them, the sanity dwells in them. They are the only intellectual humans out there. Since they are narcissists, all others can just agree with them. They are not open to discussions. And with them, everything starts with religion and ends with religion. For them, criticism does not exist. This brings me to another dimension - a difference of opinions. 

Perspectives are different

I have found that relatability in thinking is not possible. We can agree to some thoughts but walking into someone else's shoes and perceiving the things as they do is impossible. At least, in this life. It is absurd to think that people would love, think, read, write or see things as we do. 

I believe that I have been created by one entity, you can name it anything you want - God, Allah, Bhagwan, anything. But does it change the reality that it is the only entity that governs the whole universe? If I am inclined towards one particular religion, would I believe that the people with other religious beliefs are created by someone else? 

To me, everyone is created by the One. I don't mind their religious belief but colouring and concealing everything from religious perspectives gets us nowhere. These topics are beyond logic. No reason can prove the existence of simple things, even time is such a weird concept. 

The concept of time is such a tricky question. I don't believe the time is real. We have only day and night. The dates, months and years are meaningless. How could we verify the existence of the universe? They tell me it's billions of years old, clarify everything with a Big Bang theory and conclude with facts that too cannot be proven if thought logically. 

In metaphysics, nothing makes sense. The only thing that separates science and religion is the acceptance of errors. Science operates on trial and error methods. However, religion is above criticism. 

If we say, the four Holy books (most of the world believe in this) were from God, why there was a need for four books? In a population of millions, maybe billions, with no technology, how could just four books do justice? The mind does not believe in this. A person from a certain land found the truth and a person from a faraway land was not blessed with the same truth. Isn't it strange? How could God do this? 

What I believe is that power plays its trick everywhere. Those with power found the truth and those without it are still in darkness. Only power could control the logic and the mind. Hobbes' Leviathan has all the strings. Gramsci's cultural hegemony and Marx's materialism prove who is in charge of everything. 

For writing this article, I might pay a heavy price. But thanks to the Almighty, most of the audience in my country do not understand English. It's again a battle of belief and logic and I am losing both of them. 

Neither nihilism is the end nor the absurdism is beginning. Both concepts seem like walking on a tightrope where the wanderers bleed through art and pay the debt with their brains. I don't think I could clear my mind or yours but do comment if you think you are on the same page or at least think like me. Or maybe you can have your perspective since the world has eight billion minds.